( It hurts, but it would hurt more to keep not speaking. He's reaching out. )
And kicking. In an underwater city now. And Caroline and Stefan are back in Deerington. Don't tell me, you also found a door in the tunnel under the lighthouse and I'm the odd vampire out this time.
nope. like you, i'm stuck under the sea. just waiting for ursula and king triton to make an appearance next. i heard the ship sank because of godzilla.
if scuttle were here, i'd ask him for a can opener/thingamajig. you'd think it'd be easy to find one what with all the canned food ever passing off as a nutritious meal around here.
Yeah, you too. Have you found an apartment that's not too disgusting to stay in? I think the word I'd use is squalor. And I don't use the word squalor.
Why would anything in this dream affect us consistently.
I lost my strength and my speed and my hearing goes in and out. Something tells me my compulsion will be less effective and maybe even ineffective but I haven't tried yet.
look at you. willing to use compulsion so freely and easily. i never would've thought you'd be able to embrace being a vampire. how things have changed, huh?
I don't know if I'd call what I do embracing it? Yep, I'm a vampire. But, I don't snatch, eat, erase. I drink from a blood bag. And I protect, or, or help when I can. But, no, Damon I don't think I make any kind of exceptional vampire.
I'm willing to use compulsion, but I don't like to. You remember when we compelled Jeremy, don't you? You probably don't know we did it twice. One day I'll be able to ask what the last thing you remember is, but, my point is, Damon. Compulsion is necessary when it keeps someone out of danger, or it saves someone's life. And that's when I use it.
Being a vampire for me, it's about helping other people. It's not being all that I can be. I know I can. I know I'm stronger and faster and maybe in some ways better. Genetically, to borrow from the scientific underwater base we were brought to. But, it doesn't make me better.
I have changed. I'm more confident, in who I am and what I want. And I've been through... well, whatever you know, just multiply that. But, being a vampire, I don't think it changed me, Damon. I think it helped me really discover who I was. Without my parents, without these expectations. Suddenly, I couldn't have kids or grow old or have that kind of life and what did that mean to me?
And, now I'm treating one text like a journal entry. I'm sorry, we're ( She pauses her fourth message. Closer, she wants to say. This Damon and the Elena he knows, they communicate probably in the context of what is going on at the moment, who needs saving, "what's the plan." But, her Damon, she could go on for paragraphs and he'd listen. And he'd help, or apologize or offer solutions. Okay, he'd say something snarky, but he'd say it playfully and with love behind it. She feels like she's imposing, like she should delete the entire fourth message before he responds. But, she does want to see Damon more, to be able to trust him here and to get to know this Damon.
Not to - find what it is they finally achieved because something like that can't be recreated. She can 100% separate the two. But, it's like Stefan for her. A part of her will always love him. So, she decides to be half-honest and to finish the sentence. ) closer when I'm from. I don't do this all the time, but we talk.
You may not want to, and I understand if it's what you'd prefer, but, what is the last thing you remember? Before Deerington?
checking out the scenery outside my window. it was a gorgeous morning. ( yep. that's all she's getting. he doesn't feel particularly inclined to talk about what he remembers specifically because with that comes that hint of a shame for the move he pulled to ensure her survival. )
i'm glad you're dealing with it well. ( it took him years to finally be okay with being a vampire. there was all that hate he'd had to deal with on his own. )
I don't always deal with it well. I turned my humanity off for awhile. And, I haven't always made the best coping decisions. But, I live with it. And I do the best I can.
Yeah, maybe. Are you okay on blood? I have some I had packed away or, Sodder had packed away on the Titanic and I was going to check out the medical pavilion.
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Date: 2020-02-01 09:36 am (UTC)un: buffy
Date: 2020-02-02 02:24 am (UTC)And kicking. In an underwater city now. And Caroline and Stefan are back in Deerington. Don't tell me, you also found a door in the tunnel under the lighthouse and I'm the odd vampire out this time.
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Date: 2020-02-02 05:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-02 05:41 am (UTC)I don't think King Triton would live like this. The way it is here. Maybe Scuttle?
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Date: 2020-02-02 05:52 am (UTC)anyways, glad you made it here safe.
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Date: 2020-02-02 05:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-02 06:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-02 07:05 am (UTC)Which brings me to the question I've been meaning to ask. Do you feel weaker here?
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Date: 2020-02-02 08:29 am (UTC)weaker? pfft. i'm as strong as a bull. minus the usual vamp perks.
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Date: 2020-02-02 03:52 pm (UTC)I lost my strength and my speed and my hearing goes in and out. Something tells me my compulsion will be less effective and maybe even ineffective but I haven't tried yet.
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Date: 2020-02-03 05:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-04 05:16 pm (UTC)I'm willing to use compulsion, but I don't like to. You remember when we compelled Jeremy, don't you? You probably don't know we did it twice. One day I'll be able to ask what the last thing you remember is, but, my point is, Damon. Compulsion is necessary when it keeps someone out of danger, or it saves someone's life. And that's when I use it.
Being a vampire for me, it's about helping other people. It's not being all that I can be. I know I can. I know I'm stronger and faster and maybe in some ways better. Genetically, to borrow from the scientific underwater base we were brought to. But, it doesn't make me better.
I have changed. I'm more confident, in who I am and what I want. And I've been through... well, whatever you know, just multiply that. But, being a vampire, I don't think it changed me, Damon. I think it helped me really discover who I was. Without my parents, without these expectations. Suddenly, I couldn't have kids or grow old or have that kind of life and what did that mean to me?
And, now I'm treating one text like a journal entry. I'm sorry, we're ( She pauses her fourth message. Closer, she wants to say. This Damon and the Elena he knows, they communicate probably in the context of what is going on at the moment, who needs saving, "what's the plan." But, her Damon, she could go on for paragraphs and he'd listen. And he'd help, or apologize or offer solutions. Okay, he'd say something snarky, but he'd say it playfully and with love behind it. She feels like she's imposing, like she should delete the entire fourth message before he responds. But, she does want to see Damon more, to be able to trust him here and to get to know this Damon.
Not to - find what it is they finally achieved because something like that can't be recreated. She can 100% separate the two. But, it's like Stefan for her. A part of her will always love him. So, she decides to be half-honest and to finish the sentence. ) closer when I'm from. I don't do this all the time, but we talk.
You may not want to, and I understand if it's what you'd prefer, but, what is the last thing you remember? Before Deerington?
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Date: 2020-02-06 01:18 am (UTC)i'm glad you're dealing with it well. ( it took him years to finally be okay with being a vampire. there was all that hate he'd had to deal with on his own. )
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Date: 2020-02-06 04:25 am (UTC)I don't always deal with it well. I turned my humanity off for awhile. And, I haven't always made the best coping decisions. But, I live with it. And I do the best I can.
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Date: 2020-02-06 04:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-07 05:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-17 03:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-17 06:28 pm (UTC)Glad you
Had your fill.
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Date: 2020-02-17 06:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-17 06:44 pm (UTC)Don't.
I mean, it's good you found somebody all ready dead. And gave them a burial at sea or, near sea.
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Date: 2020-02-17 06:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-18 05:36 pm (UTC)Elena regrets encouraging him.
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Date: 2020-02-18 05:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-02-18 05:53 pm (UTC)no subject
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